Things have not been going according to plan! The family that hired me decided to go back on their word because they didn't want to go through the visa process again. Lovely, just lovely.
So, I sat around for over a month being depressed with nothing to do. I was going crazy. I probably have the cleanest house out of anyone in Florida! Day in and day out I was at home.... my future looking bleak. So I cooked, cleaned and painted. All day, everyday. You could eat off of my floor. There isn't a speck of dust on my baseboards, and my movies are in alphabetical and categorical order. It was miserable. It makes me wonder how some people do it: no kids, no job, don't cook, don't clean, and just sit at home. I would shoot myself. No joke. There were many days I felt like doing that and no matter how I tried to keep myself busy I still felt miserable.
Anyway, I finally got a couple of jobs and I love them both!!!! I was hired at Painting with a Twist and I also tutor 4 kids, 1 of which has autism. Both jobs have great hours and are very fulfilling. They come with some difficulties but I welcome them.
The kids I tutor are so sweet. The two youngest are so funny and full of life. The eldest, the one with autism, yells at me constantly and it's hard to get her to focus or even tell me the truth, however, she loves Star Wars and Jane Austen so I think it's going to be okay! All of the kids are very smart but you know, they're kids. They don't usually want to study.
My job at Painting with a Twist is also great! Its so fun and I have wonderful co-workers. My only struggle is determining how to act from class-to-class. Each one is different and as the floor artist I have to follow the stage artist, so it's a process. I think I am doing well but I am rather critical of myself.
Anyway, you're probably wondering: what about Europe? What happens now? Yes, I am wondering the same thing. My dream has come to a screeching halt. I am perfectly content right now. I love my house, my jobs, my roommate, etc. But it won't last. My roommate leaves in May and my lease is up in July. In all honesty, I hate florida. I can't stay here but I really love my home and my jobs, but I really want to move to Europe.... but my plans exploded in my face. My boyfriend is also in Europe and he is my best friend... I hate being so far away from him. Of course, I would rather have a long distance relationship with him than not have him at all, but it is not easy! I have beautiful friends here that I will miss with all of my heart. I will miss a lot of things, but it does't mean I am giving up.
Many of my friends have said that my boyfriend and I should just get married, then I could go to Europe for sure. I am sorry, that is not how I operate. I will get married once in my life. I have been proposed to more than once and I said no for a reason. When I get married it will be the right person and the right time. Its not that I don't think my boyfriend is the right person, but it is not the right time. And I will get to Europe on my own, like I always planned to do before I met him.
Sooo... For now, I am just riding the waves! I don't know what is going to happen. I am working hard in my current jobs and also searching hard for a way to Europe. Somehow, its all going to work out. I don't know how and I don't know when, but it's all going to work out.
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